Hello World 1

I’m afraid

I can’t

handle it all.

As though the beauty of the responsibility

will break underneath me,

and the essence of myself will bleed dry.

I am scared.

Scared that I won’t be able to open wide enough to receive it all.

Scared that the world will eat me alive,

That the chaos will engulf me,

and the best of who I am will be lost…

Lost in semantics-

In crossing t’s and dotting i’s.

Lost in the carelessness of humanity,

in the microcosm of a life confined to the known, to the real, to the certain.

I am scared that the uncertain will be more

than I can

Sustain.

I am scared of living life fully.

But I’ve run around and around.

I’ve turned myself upside down.

Searching

Waiting

Contemplating

For answers that have yet to, or may never come.

So the only question left is:

If not now, then when?

When will it ever be the right time to take my heart in my hands and say  “Hello world, let’s begin.”

 

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One comment on “Hello World

  1. Reply Yours truly Jun 9,2015 7:12 pm

    Sometimes scared is okay, really okay.
    You must also remember that you are stronger, much stronger, than you first think. Even five minutes of deep breathing and remembering aum will change the present moment for the better.

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